Confidence knocked
Last week I had a tutorial with one of the lecturers and I felt elated afterwards with a lot of positive feedback. But, over the weekend I started to suffer from a lack of confidence in my work.
I'd been in the print room and seen some of the work the 2nd or 3rd years were producing and my work felt basic and stuck in 1998 (when I finished my last degree).
I'm guessing/hoping that a lot of mature students feel like this or they do if they have a few years out of full time education.
It also doesn't help that I've gone from earning money to not earning very much at all and a panic sets in when you need to pay for car repairs (£320) then car insurance for the year (£250) then dog jabs at the vets (£68, annual check up jab and rabies), it all starts to tot up.
I am so lucky to have a super supportive husband and I worry that I need to do his justice by completing this course to the best of my ability.
Anyway, I asked for a tutorial today and expressed my concerns. We discussed what my end goal was for the MA and I said that I think ideally I'd like to get into teaching, so what do I need to do and learn to on this MA to get a job at the end of it all.
Do I need to learn more CAD, more print, more, more, more. I think I'm just having a little panic, and breath....
Anyway, I've nearly finished my seminar presentation about Brexit so I'll get that handed in before the end of the week and then I can concentrate on the sketchbook work.
I was also busy sewing on the weekend and put some more bits and bobs up for sale on Etsy.
I'd been in the print room and seen some of the work the 2nd or 3rd years were producing and my work felt basic and stuck in 1998 (when I finished my last degree).
I'm guessing/hoping that a lot of mature students feel like this or they do if they have a few years out of full time education.
It also doesn't help that I've gone from earning money to not earning very much at all and a panic sets in when you need to pay for car repairs (£320) then car insurance for the year (£250) then dog jabs at the vets (£68, annual check up jab and rabies), it all starts to tot up.
I am so lucky to have a super supportive husband and I worry that I need to do his justice by completing this course to the best of my ability.
Anyway, I asked for a tutorial today and expressed my concerns. We discussed what my end goal was for the MA and I said that I think ideally I'd like to get into teaching, so what do I need to do and learn to on this MA to get a job at the end of it all.
Do I need to learn more CAD, more print, more, more, more. I think I'm just having a little panic, and breath....
Anyway, I've nearly finished my seminar presentation about Brexit so I'll get that handed in before the end of the week and then I can concentrate on the sketchbook work.
I was also busy sewing on the weekend and put some more bits and bobs up for sale on Etsy.
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